Thoughts

For a week now I've been trying to deal with the news of having twins. Lots of thoughts have been running through my head, such as:

"How are we going to go to the zoo!"

"How are we going to get around on a daily/normal basis!"

"We have to buy a van!"

"Will I get any sleep?"

"I sure hope they are easy and patient!"

"We have to get another car seat!"

"We have to get another stroller!"

"WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!!!???"

Now, let me assure you that we ARE excited. I am a little more of a worry wart and planner though and I truly was getting used to the idea of 3 kids under 3 but now knowing that we will have 4 kids under 3 I'm much more overwhelmed than excited.

Jason has been so good, he keeps telling me to not worry about it and just take it one day at a time. I get that, but there's so many ?????s that I can't seem to STOP worrying.

As it is, I'm already the size I normally am at around 4 months (or even 5 months). I have leg cramps all day every day. I'm constantly starving and I am so tired but can't sleep. I have the craziest dreams, mostly about food that I can't quite get to. WHAT? You think I'm obsessed with food, let me assure you - I AM!!!!!

Speaking of food, I haven't given a garden update lately. I'm sad to say that I've not taken as much care of the garden as I had planned on and as it needs. My squash, cucumbers and melons are all dead. They succumbed almost from the start to cucumber beetles that I never got around to managing. The lettuce, tomatoes green beans and carrots have been a great success as was the spinach. The zinnias have done great and the pepper plants seem to be doing fine. Also the basil and coriander are doing well. What would I change for next year? Plant more: spinach and carrots. I'm not sure what I'll do about squash. Also I'd build trellises earlier (while my snap peas did well for quite some time I didn't get them on trellises until late and wound up damaging the plants). Oh, and I'd plant more variety of lettuces, it's been a little boring!

Please note this is a post that was written with a significant about of humor underlying all the pregnancy things. We really are excited - but it is a daunting undertaking.